watch your mouth.
A few months ago, I remember sitting in my room so overwhelmed with my personal “to-do” list that I asked God for a break. I had so many responsibilities and more were piling on my plate.
SIDE NOTE: Adulting sucks.
I literally said “God, I just need two months at least to get my life in order.”
Have you ever been in a place where you have so much going on that you just needed to press pause on everything or perhaps restart so you can do things differently? Well this was me almost every single day. Seriously, something had to change. And just when I thought I was checking one thing off of my list...three more things were being added. I began to feel hopeless. I honestly thought I could patch up the residual effects of life’s disappointments: parent’s divorce, many failed relationships and friendships, giving up on my broadcasting dreams, along with a host of others if God would just give me two worry-free months.
Y'all I can’t believe I was trying to barter with God! smh
Then God being God stepped in and did what he does best and said “okay, this is what you said you wanted” and so graciously granted me the “time off” that I so desperately asked for (or demanded on some days).
TAKE AWAY: Be careful what you ask for.
Little did I know that the time off that I wanted wasn’t at all how I envisioned it would be.
I can’t really heal and solve all of life’s problems within 60 days. It takes work. Continual work. I should have known that.
*insert heavy face palm*
Here I was thinking that if I could just press pause then life’s “work hard” requirement would be waived and I would be able to live life free as a bird. NOT!
There’s literally no escaping working hard. Everything in life requires hard work: faith, school, career, making friends, being in a relationship, marriage, managing family, building a business...I mean I can go on.
Since my last day in the office I’ve been up at night working and building but the difference this time is that my passion is intertwined with the demand that God has put on my life. No longer can I (or we - I'm making this a collective revelation) afford to sit idle and wait for things to come to us. We have to go get it even if that means being uncomfortable for a little while.
And honestly...we are created in the image of Him. We don’t need a “life break” to gather the scattered pieces of our lives. We just need Him! God is literally all we need. He’ll give us the peace, wisdom, understanding, discipline, obedience, competence, skill, talent and temperament to do it all; to balance it all. All we have to do is ABIDE!
“Live in me. Make your home in me just as I do in you. In the same way that a branch can’t bear grapes by itself but only by being joined to the vine, you can’t bear fruit unless you are joined with me.” - John 15:4 (MSG)
“If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.” - John 15:7 (ESV)
Let’s reflect together -
What have you been asking (or begging) God for lately?
If He gave you what you’ve been asking for today would you be ready? Prepared? Equipped?
What have you been spending your “down” time doing?
Have you been sitting idle?
What has God been asking of you that you’ve been putting off?
Let’s talk! Comment below!