it’s bigger than me.
If you’ve gone back and read some of my past blog posts you’ve probably noticed that I am really hard on myself. I mention “have GRACE for yourself!” often…and well…I am really talking to myself! 🥴😅🤦🏾♀️
Recently, one of my old friends from college reached out to me to tell me how proud of me she was and that she’s always loved my personality. I never know how to take compliments like that. 😓 Because deep down I feel I am not worthy of such compliments.
Why do we do that? I can’t be the only one that does this! 🤦🏾♀️
My homegirl and I attended grad school together. Truly one of the most trying periods of my life! (probably both of our lives!) I was working full-time and going to school full-time. (whew chileee- I do not recommend!) But through it all we were there for one another!
Once we graduated, she moved back to her home state and I settled here in Grand Rapids. We definitely didn’t talk everyday like we once did but we indulged in the obligatory social media celebrations for each other (i.e. birthdays, life accomplishments, engagements, etc.). All in all, we were still “there” for one another but in a different way!
One morning she shared a message with me about favor connections – people God intentionally placed in your life to help you go further; people that help you grow rather than stifle your growth. These people may be further along than you, but are you intimidated by them or are you honoring them and learning from them?
Y’all that hit me!
#1 I never think I am further along than anyone so I struggled to see myself as anyone’s favor connection 🥴🤦🏾♀️ Lauren…🗣GRACE!
So I really took some time to take inventory of people in my life and also evaluate my own perspective. No matter how much I want to be silent or remain dormant…I can’t! IT’S BIGGER THAN ME!
So yes, I went through stuff, made a lot of mistakes along the way. No, it wasn’t fun, it wasn’t pretty, nor was it part of “my plan” for my life but I’m here nonetheless. I have to let go off all this negative self-talk and thoughts and give myself more grace (for the fifty leventh time 🙄🤦🏾♀️😅).
REFLECT: Do you consider yourself a favor connection? Who are you elevating? Is someone elevating you? What negative thoughts do you need to get rid of to invite positivity to manifest throughout your life?